Head on the Moon?

Called Viv, my beloved sister, last night. It's always a great comfort speaking with her. She could make the most serious thing or saddest situation funny. We joked a lot about others and ourselves.

Of course I told her the heart condition test results. Perhaps I should get a psychiatric evaluation, she suggested. We'll see what the cardiologist say when I visit him next week. If there's really nothing wrong with my heart, will he suggest me the same thing?

Considering Viv suffered from depression years ago, she's opted for any signs of mental imbalance. Today, single-parent families are more common than our generation. However, we grew up in an age of feeling embarrassed or being "pitied" by other kids because of our "broken" family. Her psychiatrist told her some of these experiences and feelings might have wounded us. We have had always taken pressure or unfairness so well that we don't know when or how to release frustrations. Thus, we are affected "inside."

Viv told me many ways to relax my mind and not to make my thoughts wander to the stress land. She also said exercise could only help me to a certain extent. The key was to really for me rid of stress of my mind from within. Perhaps, my mind temporarily is off focus of perturbing ideas during physical workout. We can't exercise 24 hours a day, can we? She had a point there.

I should let the whole thing go now and start bringing the happy me back.